Title Change, didn't know that it was the same as the last.

I've always been bad with blogging. But I think anymore my problem is facebook and twitter. Not that I really get overly detailed with my messages, but I do tend to get a bit more personal on twitter. Most of the people on twitter are either web sites I follow, who don't follow me, really close friends or ones I hardly see or some friends I have had forever that I have never met personally, none of these people judge me for who I am. On facebook I'm just a tad more reserved since I have to worry about who might read my works. Here it's unexplainable, because I'm nervous about who might read, but at the same time I don't think anyone really does read it. I mean who would come here, when I haven't posted in almost 3 months. Not that there hasn't been a lot going on because there has been.

There was me completing my first semester at the community college, working towards my RN, then there is my absolutely, ridiculous obsession with the Twilight series, and just about anything about Lexie. I've also been going through a rough time personally. What to talk about first though.

Let's start with school. I took 4 gen eds this spring. I got 3 A's and one B. Not overly happy about the outcome, but it's better than my first semester at Doane, LOL. I thought it would be difficult, and it was but I think I was better prepared. I still don't know the best way for me to study, but I managed to get through somehow. I am taking 2 classes this summer, Anatomy and Physiology and Writing & Research. Not overly excited about either, but I did manage an A on my first test in A & P. I also get to start nursing classes in the Fall and I am absolutely pumped about it.

Then the whole Twilight thing, it's ridiculous like I sad. Dave thinks I'm insane, and I don't know what to think. I'm pretty sure that I feel the same way he does, but I just can't get enough. But I feel a little better that maybe once the movies are done if won't hold that interest it does now. Like with Harry Potter, I have read all the books a couple times, but I've read the last 2 more than that, just because their isn't a movie to go along with it. Doesn't make much sense though. It's like once I see the movies and read the books a couple times, I really know the story pretty well. I tried to start reading the Harry Potter books again and it was like I was being forced to read them, but still a bit enjoyable.

Oh and Lexie. Potty training is absolutely not working. She did so well in January for awhile and then, she didn't want much to do with it. We are still trying, but we just can't get through to her. On May 12th, she turned 3 and time has just flown by way too fast. Which I guess brings me to the next problem, which is that I always wanted to have more children, only one or 2 more, but I didn't want them to be so far apart in age. But at this point we don't have much of a choice. I'm going back to school, and we aren't anywhere near financially secure. It just makes me sad, especially since I now have my nephew who is 5 months old now, one of my bridemaids in having a baby due the end of November and then we just found out some of our friends that had their first baby about 18 months after Lexie and pregnant with their second. So you can say I'm a bit jealous and depressed even. I wish we were secure financially and able to have a baby. Heck we already have names picked out, but we are crazy like that. If you want to know them, ask and I might tell them to you.

So I guess that's where part of my issues personally stem from. I'm just not happy with how my life is right now. I'm not happy with how I look physically, I want to lose like 20 pounds and get a 6 pack(lol, not going to happen). And I do know that I want to be a nurse but I want to do so many other things too. I want to learn massage, guitar and maybe start singing again. It would be so awesome to be a musician, though I've never had much faith in my singing abilities, but I know I had to be good enough to get into an auditioned choir in college and getting a duet in a concert and being inches away from having a solo in the Messiah. Always got A's or A+'s in choir and voice lessons. Maybe I could be good, lol. But along with that I miss going to my friends concerts and even just being with friends in general. I just feel so incredibly isolated here. It's like the only pull this place, meaning Nebraska as a whole has for me is my family. I think that for the first time in my life, I actually may want to leave this place, and that's saying something.

Well I think that's enough crazy talk for one day. If anyone is out there actually reading this, I say thanks. Leave a message if you want.

So ya..

Yep, I'm kind of lagging on the blogging, which isn't something new. Though I have to say I've had many a thing I could have blogged about.

First off in Lexie news, we just finished our run of antibiotics for an ear infection. Which we never would have known, had we not taken her in for a nasty case of pink eye she got at daycare. She has never been one to pull on her ears, she would just have fevers to signal ear infections and once we thought she might have pink eye, I started taking her temp a lot. Needless to say there was no fever, though she ran about 99 something when we took her in. So I was surprised to know that she had an ear infection. She had gone almost a whole year without one. Her last one was right before we moved back to GI. Also she isn't doing too hot with the time change, though neither am I. I worked my 3-11 this weekend and it made for a rough few mornings so far, for both me and her.

Dave is same old, same old. He did get a raise, right before they put a freeze on them till August. And he got insurance, though we could only afford to put him on it, since the company basically pays him for it. We did manage to get dental for the family, since it's not overly expensive.

As for me, well it's going. I'm sure there are things I will forget to mention but oh well. Work is going ok except for the occasional screw up with my schedule or people calling in sick so I have to come in. And actually this sounds so wrong but ever since I started working there I have been checking the Obits everyday. But that could just be because no one told me the last time someone passed away. There is a slight lack of communication at work. Today I looked in the obits and one of our residents passed away and it makes me sad, but then I think of how many problems he had and how much pain he had and remember that he is in a better place and now he doesn't have pain anymore.

And school, well, it's school. I thought I would be more interested in it this time around. And maybe it's just that I'm taking gen eds, but I'm not all that found of any of my classes except for maybe my chemistry class. Nutrition is interesting but trying to match the sources and functions of every vitamin to their name isn't necessarily easy, which makes me scared to get my test back tonight. Though I am happy to say I did manage to get my highest test grade yet, overall on my last Chemistry test and I got a 97. I was completely amazed. When I had biology at Doane I think I ended up with a C, which I'm not proud of to say the least. It just doesn't make sense that I would do so much better in Chemistry. Maybe it's the teacher, because I know when I switched Chem teachers in high school my grade went up almost 10 points. I actually did good in Organic Chemistry, which is completely crazy.

And with the whole school thing, my plan maybe messed up. I had my meeting in February and I come to find out they only have Spring '10 openings for LPN. So I'm hoping I get bumped up but I'm not getting my hopes up. I guess we will see how it all pans out. Oh and last week I had found my peon dream job. They had a CNA opening in peds and they also help in the obgyn department. If it had been part time I would have been all over it, but it was full time and I have enough problems managing full time student with part time job. I know people can manage to do both but not me. But I guess I'm also adding in taking care of a child and husband, but I'm sure others manage all those too. I guess I'm just lazy.

Any way I will try to stay more update. Oh and I got my hair cut and foiled. Here is a pic.

New Game Plan

So since starting classes last week and getting my letter from admissions telling me what I have left to do to actually get a seat in the RN program, I have started re-evaluate my course of action. The original plan was to go straight into the RN program, no ifs ans or buts. Well after looking at how long it will take to get me to graduation, I really want to fast track it. So I'll list the old plan and the new plan so you can see the differences.

Old Plan
1 - Take Assessment Test - Tried the ACT and that didn't go so well. Took the Compass or Assest, can't remember which and got high enough scores for the RN program.
2 - If ACT was achieved go direction to step 2, if not proceed to take 8 credits of Science with at least a GPA of 2.8.
3 - Take Gen Eds to get old GPA from Doane up .02 points to achieve cumlative GPA of 2.8.

Here are my options under the old plan, retake the ACT in April or just take 8 credits of Science. If I choose option 1 I could be able to get my seat in mid-May or June, if I chose option 2 then I have to wait till July or August. Now seeing as the current seats are for Fall of 2010, I need to try the second option. I don't need it to be Fall of 2011. Any way with the Fall of 2010 being the soonest I could start the nursing classes, after this semester I would only have 4
Gen eds left. I am hoping to take 2 over the summer and then one in Fall 09 and one in Spring 10. This just seems like a total waste of time to me, so I came up with a new plan, or a modified old one.

Old Plan + My Fast Track = New Plan
Continue with steps 1-3, chosing option 1 to get my seat by May.
4 - Re-apply to Nursing program for Practical Nursing. I am already qualified and seats are open for Fall of 09. WooHoo!

This being said I could be wasting less time with this new plan. I could be making more money sooner and there is the possibility that I could graduate a year earlier than with the old plan. The reason this would be is because the LPN and ADN programs share some classes. So I would already have a years worth of classes done before Fall 2010, meaning I could protentially graduate in the Summer of 2011 instead of Spring 2012. Now my advisor says that it's not a guarantee that it will work out as I imagine. I could get bumped up in my seat for the RN program while I'm in the LPN program. I personally don't see this happening, if that happens 60+ people would have to drop from the list, and you can only start in the Fall semester for the RN program. Plus the seats have been for Fall 2010 since we first met with my advisor in September. I think the chance of me getting bumped is slim to none.

I just think it would ROCK to graduate a year before I originally planned, which means a better and sooner chance for more children. Dave is starting to think if it takes me too long to get through school then Lexie may be our only child and that makes me really sad.

The Unexpected Christmas Gift

Well we definitely got an unexpected Christmas gift this year. We got a nephew.

It all started on Christmas Eve when we went to my brother-in-law's house for Christmas in Kearney. We did the whole eating thing and opening gifts. After everyone had left except me and Dave, we watched some movies together. I think we got done watching movies around 11:30 that night, and when everyone started getting ready for bed, my sister-in-law started acting a little odd. Well Dave and I crawl into bed and my brother-in-law says they are going to the hospital and we find out her water broke. This was very unexpected since the original due date was January 20th and they were going to have their C-Section on the 12th. Needless to say they weren't ready. I think they were really glad that we were there, since my sister-in-law's water never broke with her first child. We were able to reasure them that everything would be fine and that we went through this with Lexie. We followed them to the hospital and around 3am my brother-in-law came in to tell us that everything was fine and then we all decided to go home and let the baby and my sister-in-law get some rest.

Since they weren't quite ready I set myself to work to start getting some of the baby clothing washed and ready for them. I got most of the clothing washed the next morning and we took a bag of baby clothes to the hospital the next day. I always wish I could have done more and that I didn't have to work all weekend, maybe I could have helped out more.

Today we go back to Kearney to see my nephew and let Lexie stay with my in-laws for awhile since my mother-in-law has Christmas break. I'm pretty excited to see the nephew again he is so cute.

Landon Pete
Born: December 25th, 2008 at 1:38am
Weight: 6lbs 3oz
Length: 20in

Topic of Conversation..Babies

How my husband randomly brought up the topic of having children is beyond me, but he did. A little bit a background here, before I talk about the conversation. Before we decided to move to my hometown, we had planned to either try and have another child around the time that Lexie was between 3 and 4. I wanted to make sure she was out of diapers. And our side plan in case we didn't get a boy the second time around was to have one more, but the 2nd and 3rd would be a bit closer together. Of course planning for children isn't easy, and we sure didn't 'plan' to have Lexie, we just didn't prevent it from happening.

Now since we have moved our plans have changed. When we first moved here we were just going to push the next baby to happen when Lexie is around 4. Unfortunately I wasn't lucky enough to find a job here within my career field. As some may know I have now started to pursue a degree in Registered Nursing, and at this point if thing happen fast enough the soonest I could start my actually nursing classes is in Fall of 2010, which would push my graduation to Spring of 2012. We had hoped that we could get in early, so I could graduate in Spring of 2011. Either way Lexie would be 5 or 6 before we could have number 2.

On to the conversation, we are driving home from Dave's work. I had my test on the side of town he works on so it was pointless to drive home and them drive right back to the opposite side of town again. But as we were driving home he just says out of the blue, 'We could just have the one child, I'm not sure I could go through this again.' He means the terrible 2's. They truely are a bit rough, but not every child will be the same, especially if we have a girl. Then he shocks me and says 'Why don't we just have 3 so at least 2 are closer in age.' I think I have always like the idea of 3, though sometimes the middle child seems to get the short end of the stick. To me I just don't want one child. But it also really pains me that my 1st and 2nd child could potentially be 6 years apart. I also desparately want a boy, and I guess I will know for sure how I feel once my nephew comes into the world.

I guess I just thought I would share, since I never thought these words would come out of my husbands mouth.

Positives and Negatives of the Weekend

As I had mentioned in my previous post I was to take the ACT on Saturday. Well needless to say it was a fiasco. I was horribly stupid and thought that my phone is on silent, since it usually is on silent. I usually forget to turn the ringer on, not the other way around. Any way I got through all of the English, Math and half the Reading when my dad called my phone. He thought I had called to have him pick me up, when in reality I had called him the night before. So as you can guess my phone rang during the middle of the Reading test and I got kicked out of the ACT. Not one of my finer moments. Alas the money spent on the ACT wasn't a total waste. Even though my test is void, I can retake in February and not have to pay again. Now since
February is after school starts, I will be taking the Compass test for free tomorrow morning and I get my results right away.

The good part of the weekend was the baby shower I hosted for my sister-in-law, my brother-in-law's wife. She will be having a C-Section the same day I start classes, on January 12th. They will be having a baby boy that they plan to call Landon. Any way the shower was wonderful and I got lots of comments. I wish I could have done more, but with working part-time, money is on the short end. We played 5 games, Nursery Rhyme Jeopardy, Baby Word Scramble, Guess the Baby Food, Old Wives' Tale Trivia and a game where you write a typical first time mom question, then pass your card on and then you write your questions answer on the new card you have. That probably doesn't clarify it, but it was pretty funny. I also had each person right a special note to my sister-in-law saying something special about her and the coming bundle of joy. Here is a picture from the shower.

The Life and Times of a Blackberry and other things..

It seems like so much has happened since I got my job offer last week. So far I have worked 3 days. It is definitely what I thought it would be, but it's also not what I thought it would be. There are so many types of geriatric care facilities and everyone is different. I am only in assisted living and it's nothing like a nursing home or other similar places. We do limited ADL care, since they have to be able to care for them selves a certain amount in order to just be in assisted living. Though we don't do as much as a nursing home they still keep us busy that's for sure.

I have been exhasted after work each night. And I'm glad I got to switch to evenings instead of nights but I'm used to going to bed at 10, and sometimes earlier than that. Now I work till 11. But it's good to just be able to not have to learn to stay up all night and try to go to school full time. The only thing that isn't so good about working nights is that I really miss my baby. When I work nights the only time I see her is in the morning when I am getting her ready for school.

In other news I have the ACT on saturday and after the ACT I am hosting a baby shower for my sister-in-law(my brother-in-laws) wife. I'm nervous and excited at the same time. I've only done one other shower before and I knew everyone at the shower, this time it will be a bit different.

I guess I should get to the blackberry. Well this weekend my mom had a Mary Kay open house, and so it was just us gals at home. Well near the end of the party Lexie gets a hold of my blackberry and sticks it in a cup of tea. So my blackberry was toast. It couldn't be saved, we tried. Yesterday I got my replacement from insurance, so I'm really glad that my husband got the insurance when it was finially available for the blackberrys.